feeling rotten about myself.

maybe it is due to the fact that i hastily wrote a response to a major question in 30 mins instead of the recommended one hour; therefore, i could only write based on my gut feel and was unable to think through and flesh out that response.

maybe it is due to the fact that i don't have the academic background to help me write a feature story or a news article in the proper manner. yes, i am teaching English at the pre-tertiary level. yes, some of my writing has been published in newspapers. i may be able to write but i don't know whether my approach fulfills the markers' expectations of good writing.

why didn't i study mass communications?

maybe i just feel sianz. i am not asking for much-just a job change. i am willing to start from scratch, willing to learn, willing to put in the time and submit quality work.

why can't people just offer me a job, even an internship position, instead of subjecting me to writing tests to deem if i am worthy?

does my teaching experience, heaven forbid, limit my options?

why does this search seem like it has existed forever? how much waiting can I wait?

but i won't, i won't, i won't give up. it is too late to turn back le.